So maybe all this therapy is actually working. I’ve come to realize why I’ve changed so much and that is because IM SCARED. I’m scared to make mistakes, so I don’t put myself out there anymore. I don’t understand how all of a sudden, it seems, that I have gotten here! I used to be so random, so outgoing, and never ever had trouble making casual conversation. I’ve gotten so awkwarddd talking to people and I know it! ARG. Oh well, I’m working to fix it (so please just work with me, I’m trying to not be awkward but once again I am relearning this concept haha) and practicing putting myself out there everyday. Maybe this will help :) Anyways, the last two weeks have been super fun and active! I learned how to hit a golfball at a driving range with Matt and Andrew, then with Jordan and Ben we went bowling which I haven’t done in forever, had a fire in out backyard while Paul played guitar and Ben sang and the rest of us chit-chatted, went to a dance performance with John Michael, and went on a hike with Miss Lauren <3 Overall, a very entertaining week! I have been on the search for new roommates for a week now. I have had a few offers, and one house visit already. Two more girls are coming tomorrow. I really hope I can find someone soon. I just want my peaceful house to stay the same! It’s my sanctuary and I refuse to give it up!!

So maybe all this therapy is actually working. I’ve come to realize why I’ve changed so much and that is because IM SCARED. I’m scared to make mistakes, so I don’t put myself out there anymore. I don’t understand how all of a sudden, it seems, that I have gotten here! I used to be so random, so outgoing, and never ever had trouble making casual conversation. I’ve gotten so awkwarddd talking to people and I know it! ARG. Oh well, I’m working to fix it (so please just work with me, I’m trying to not be awkward but once again I am relearning this concept haha) and practicing putting myself out there everyday. Maybe this will help :)

Anyways, the last two weeks have been super fun and active! I learned how to hit a golfball at a driving range with Matt and Andrew, then with Jordan and Ben we went bowling which I haven’t done in forever, had a fire in out backyard while Paul played guitar and Ben sang and the rest of us chit-chatted, went to a dance performance with John Michael, and went on a hike with Miss Lauren <3 Overall, a very entertaining week!

I have been on the search for new roommates for a week now. I have had a few offers, and one house visit already. Two more girls are coming tomorrow. I really hope I can find someone soon. I just want my peaceful house to stay the same! It’s my sanctuary and I refuse to give it up!!